When My Vital Signs Disappear

Heartorned

Tell me when you will come here
When you will come to see me
And also if you will touch me

Turn off the lights and don’t make noises
Only if it’s your breathing
Softly and warmly
In my ears

Now I’m ready
To feel you inside
And your body touching mine
And our eyes rolling at the same time

All this would be less complicated
If that medicine my body was still invading
But I had to stop taken
Because it doesen’t worth it

Now that I’ve been inside you
And you’ve been inside me in a way too
I need to tell you the truth
I am scared of what I will live through

These meetings of ours at my house
Sometimes I don’t know how
How I’m going to experience this with other people
With my mental condition

The worst is when I think about how my life will be
In the future when my parents are no longer here
How am I going to live?
If that today even the sunlight I don’t see?

Who is gonna take care of me?
Did you see a future for me?
I can only see my soul getting free
When my vital signs disappear