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Icky Disco

i’m ok right now lol this is just me at my darkest and most vulnerable. this is unfiltered depression. sometimes it feels nice to not have to pretend to be ok.

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i i i i i i i i hate myself erase myself this worthless waste of time and space im horrible unlovable i dont deserve the air i breathe i dont deserve the food i eat the space this body takes up i i dont deserve a body i i dont deserve your help im sinful irredeemable the worst ever conceivable im nothing i am trash just discard me and dont look back ill never be worthy of love i i ill never be enough i i am broken i am useless it will never be okay i i i im not getting better never better why am i alive i wish i were a masochist i wish i could say i like pain but i hate it i hate suffering i hate my every waking moment i hate everything but i i hate myself the most i despise me euthanize me everything hurts forever like a rib cage made of knives like bones filled with lead like a skull smashed against the concrete like hammering fingernails into a coffin i dont deserve to be happy i dont deserve to feel i dont deserve to touch i dont deserve warmth or to love or be loved i dont deserve the things i want i dont deserve the things i have i can only lie on the cold bathroom floor and cry and cry and cry and if i lay still enough i can fantasize ive died and i

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