Survive

Vestigial Remorse

As cold, insensitive, broken down,
left for dead, deformed, mislead,
incapacitated, mutilated,
scarred up, cauderized,
left to dry and left to die,
bled out, damaged,

patched up with damaged goods…

I’m still here
I’m still alive
I’ll always survive

As cut up, cut down,
dyed black on this canvas,
I’ve been tattooed and scarred
to reflect your world.
Yet you’re all still staring at me

I’m still here
I’m still alive
I’ll always survive

Why should I eat your pointless birthday cake?
Why should I partake in your wedding cake?
Why should I want your good will,
yellow ribbon f–king ticker tape
Why should your accolades fall on my deaf ears

Everything I’ve done is pointless
Everything I’ve made means nothing
Everything I’ve made is pointless
Everything I’ve done means nothing

Fill up my deaf ears with your hollow gratitude