''The name of this song is Mediocrity.''

Steven Douglas Baughman

I give up. On everything.

I become obsessed with tea and incense a while back. So I bought some of the best and most interesting I could find. Which in itself is great, as I have no money to speak of, but… Anyway, I quickly tired of both, and resolved to switch back to the cheap stuff once I brewed and burned through it.

Keeping the music and the cats. Damn these ségas are wonderful…

Normally I spend 2 or 3 months between relationships, recharging my batteries, grounding myself, whatever. But now, as I realize that I’ve already been without a meaningful relationship for 18 years, and have already been grounding myself for the last 7 months, that I find myself in a bit of a rush to find someone meaningful before I die.

Which is fun while still actually married.

Which is also bound to end badly. I’m old, I’m set in my ways, and I live in as Christian and conservative of a tiny and isolated town as you could imagine.

Hopefully this song won’t become “Losing My Resolve.” Which, knowing my weaknesses, it probably will…