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i’m ok right now lol this is just me at my darkest and most vulnerable. this is unfiltered depression. sometimes it feels nice to not have to pretend to be ok.

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i i i i i i i i hate myself erase myself this worthless waste of time and space im horrible unlovable i dont deserve the air i breathe i dont deserve the food i eat the space this body takes up i i dont deserve a body i i dont deserve your help im sinful irredeemable the worst ever conceivable im nothing i am trash just discard me and dont look back ill never be worthy of love i i ill never be enough i i am broken i am useless it will never be okay i i i im not getting better never better why am i alive i wish i were a masochist i wish i could say i like pain but i hate it i hate suffering i hate my every waking moment i hate everything but i i hate myself the most i despise me euthanize me everything hurts forever like a rib cage made of knives like bones filled with lead like a skull smashed against the concrete like hammering fingernails into a coffin i dont deserve to be happy i dont deserve to feel i dont deserve to touch i dont deserve warmth or to love or be loved i dont deserve the things i want i dont deserve the things i have i can only lie on the cold bathroom floor and cry and cry and cry and if i lay still enough i can fantasize ive died and i

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