up for breath (studio session)

broken ladder

tuning: standard

lyrics:
i woke up this morning,
and wanted to go back up for breath.
intoxicated epiphanies, late nights, then lonely bed.
regurgitation of all the day’s long hard thoughts.
then comforting silence in not having to think at all.

a sweet man, head full of regret.
tries to face a new day, head into the wind.

i don’t think anyone can see through this smile.
do you hide too? do you hide too?
i hope they can’t see that i’m breaking inside.
i’m smiling. i’m hiding.

i’ve got some friends.
they tell me that i’m okay.
i shrug and nervously laugh,
and slowly i turn away.

i’ll go out later
for a long soothing drive;
gaze toward the land,
and catch the tears in my lap.

it’s raining, and it won’t ever end.
i wish i could go back,
and live life again.

i turned into me,
now how could this be?
i’d gladly improve myself
by wiping out all memory.

i want to find a mirror image of me,
struggling to hide from reality.

i’ll fight the sorrow and ride out the pain.
i won’t die. i won’t die.
under the ocean and begging to leave,
i’ll be here, yet i’ll sing.