The Cathedral/My Name is Haidan/Cemetery

Dandy From Home

TV dinner on the floor
Mattress blocking the door
You don’t have to hear me anymore
I’ve got more notes than chords
I should’ve known walls would come down
Swinging that sledgehammer around

They told me it’d be a long climb over the hill
Shoving my laundry up the mountain
Till the chains drag me down
Is that adorable to you
Why aren’t you more frustrated with every stupid thing I do

TV dinner on the floor
Mattress blocking the door
You don’t have to hear me anymore
I’ve got more notes than chords
I should’ve known walls would come down
Swinging that sledgehammer around

I am not much more than anything you can comprehend
I am human, I’m only trying to be a better friend
So please don’t reduce me to adjectives
When you can’t describe the feeling true love gives

I’m flesh, I’m burning up inside
I’m holding on to that dear sweet look in your eyes
While the devil pulls me away from the shining lights
Hanging over the pine trees

Oh won’t someone take my old bones
Buried in the backyard of my very first home
Burn them down to ash and throw them up in the air
On the hills of the cathedral

I miss you, honeybee
Burning up on the concrete
In the same position you were born in
Reaching for salvation
Buried underneath leaves and words of scripture
That mean so little to me
I want to hold you so close to my heart
But words fail me

I used to dream in dimensions I thought no one understood
Then I met the people who live them
Now I’m a fool whispering to the rain
Dancing on train tracks
Picking cicada skin off every plant

As I move from one valley to another
Over mountains flowing into each other like one big river
I’m a vulture seeking closure
You’re a manifestation of all the people I’ve hurt

It was the loneliness that made my brain so small
Alongside the neurodegenerative side effects of alcohol
Take me out, put me down

I’m a dog with a cone round its head
I’m a doll in a plastic house split open
Take me out, move me round
I can cook those rubber eggs if you want me to
Or I can be more than you thought you knew
I can breathe freely if that would please you

I have a name
That means more to me than anything
More than love
More than bills
I have a gun pointed directly at the sun
I have a shadow stuck to me like a wet paper towel
I have a name
I’m still getting used to it
I have the same thought stuck in my head
I have a gun pointed directly at the sun
I have a shadow
I have the devil stuck to me

I’d want to live like any person would live in the movies
But now I’m a vehicle, everyone sees their own lives through me
I’m motifs, I’m a symbol of the directors failed dreams
I’m moving pictures on a tv screen

I impermanently exist within the scope of your vision
I lost my hands reaching back in a moment of confusion
I quit moving around waiting for the big hand to pick me up
Take me out, put me down

I’m a dog with a cone round its head
I’m a doll in a plastic house split open
Take me out, move me round
I can cook those rubber eggs if you want me to
Or I can be more than you thought you knew
I can breathe freely if that would please you

I have a name
That means more to me than anything
More than love
More than bills
I have a gun pointed directly at the sun
I have a shadow stuck to me like a wet paper towel
I have a name
I’m still getting used to it
I have the same thought stuck in my head
I have a gun pointed directly at the sun
I have a shadow
I have the devil stuck to me

It all comes so easy, easy
When you look back so sweetly, sweetly
And you tell me you need me, need me
Sweeping up the dust right before noon

It starts with you
Cause I need you
Cemetery won’t get me where I need to
Some would say forgive yourself for dumb things you do
Remember that you’re only living your first life too
Under the shade with my head in the grass
Letting the day rollover and pass
Have a couple drinks and play my guitar
Sing about the world and driving my car

It starts with you
Cause I need you
Cemetery won’t get me where I need to
Some would say forgive yourself for dumb things you do
Remember that you’re only living your first life too
Under the shade with my head in the grass
Letting the day rollover and pass
Have a couple drinks and play my guitar
Sing about the world and driving my car

It starts with you
Cause I need you
Cemetery won’t get me where I need to
Some would say forgive yourself for dumb things you do
Remember that you’re only living your first life too
Under the shade with my head in the grass
Letting the day rollover and pass
Have a couple drinks and play my guitar
Sing about the world and driving my car