07 The Singing Sands

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She recognizes she is in trouble. She knows she is tearing her family apart and she is still using drinking as an escape from feeling the responsibility. Now that she knows how she is hurting everyone, she feels she can manage the addiction. She pushes further down the spiral…

Verse
As you plead with me
Try to get me to see
All the damage I’ve done here on my own
And I, I thought I could
Manage and control it
Swearing every day would be the day I quit
And the void inside
Grew everyday
To the point where no amount of spirits could
Sustain it, so I poured, more to escape the shame and pain I caused

Chorus
And I, refuse to admit
I am wrong, I still have control
And you, refuse to commit
To pushing me, where I need to be
And I, I still want you, to fill the hole, in my soul
But down, is all we know

Verse two
Take a walk with me
And you will see
I’m not as crazy as you make me out to be
Try, try to keep up
Cause maybe if your here
I won’t have to flirt with the knife
Cause these, are fragile wrists
I know you think that I
Don’t have what it takes to expose the veins
And, maybe you’re right
but if you’re here, we won’t have to find out tonight

Bridge
And though you say
That I need help
I still refuse
And I, I hate you, for thinking that you, know what I need
Cause I know what I am, I know that I can,
bare the weight all on my own